Feb 15 2016

Hi All. Thanks for the support on my last post. This week has been up and down. For most of the week, I was thinking I was going to be okay. Then the weekend happened and I had another setback. I'll be back to blogging regularly at some point. For now, I just want to keep up with posting weekly weigh-ins. If I don't, I run the risk of ending up adding all the weight back on.

Weigh-in this morning was 221.8 lbs. That's a 0.6 lbs loss since last week.

I forgot my phone on the charger one day, and got a bunch of steps another day from walking, a dance class and then a bunch of dancing.

Update

This last week was one of the toughest weeks of my life. I received some devastating news. I'm not going to post what happened on here save to say that the next year is going to be very very hard for me. I am not sure what's going to happen over the next year or so, but either way I foresee a lot of hardship and emotional pain.

I reacted to the news first by losing my appetite completely, and then by going completely overboard over the weekend. I stress-ate and ate without feeling any joy in the eating. I didn't keep up with my resolutions of exercise exactly, but did some exercise all days but one. This is what happened:

SUN - Dumbbell Exercises (DONE!!)
MON - Walk w. Lisa: 13,083 steps (DONE!!)
TUE - Yoga Strength DVD Walked 2.5 miles
WED - Walk on my own: 14,375 steps (DONE!!)
THU - Dumbbell Exercises Walked 2.5 miles
FRI - Yoga Strength DVD No Exercise
SAT - Walk w. Libby / Contra Dance Turned out it was the wrong weekend for contra

This week, I hope to do:

SUN - Walk: 11,193 steps (DONE!!)
MON - Walk w. Lisa
TUE - Dumbbell Exercises
WED - Yoga Strength DVD
THU - Dumbbell Exercises
FRI - Yoga Strength DVD
SAT - Walk w. Libby

Weigh-in this morning was 222.4 lbs. Loss of 1.4 lbs.

Keep me in your thoughts.

Mid-Week Update

Following my last post about weighing myself almost daily, Christina and Lori commented and suggested that I put the scale away between weigh-ins. Christina has had great success with this which she has blogged about also. I myself have always thought not weighing myself between "official" weigh ins is a great idea. Daily weighing is a reflection of disordered thinking about my body. I recommend not weighing daily to others. But as with so many things, I have found it easier to preach than to practice. I am going to do that this week though. Christina - I like the idea of putting my scale somewhere less accessible.

My eating has been reasonably good so far this week. I've certainly had some carby meals, but it was never my plan to give up carbs anyway. And I'm getting loads of veggies in as well.

Exercise has been somewhat on plan. Here are my goals and progress so far:

SUN - Dumbbell Exercises (DONE!!)
MON - Walk w. Lisa: 13,083 steps (DONE!!)
TUE - Yoga Strength DVD (not done - I walked 2.5 miles instead)
WED - Walk on my own do Yoga DVD instead
THU - Dumbbell Exercises
FRI - Yoga Strength DVD
SAT - Walk w. Libby / Contra Dance

BREAKFAST
Unphotographed 100cal Yoplait Blueberry Greek Yogurt. This yogurt was so watery that there is no way it was greek yogurt! But it was tasty, though

LUNCH

Salad w. Spinach, yellow cherry tomatoes, yellow bell pepper, garbanzos, walnuts, babybel light cheese and greek dressing and an orange

SNACK

Babybel Light Cheese

DINNER

"Fried" rice: steamed rice sauteed with mushrooms, carrots, onions, peas, cabbage, ginger, soy sauce and pepper; Bell pepper and peanut stir-fry

Two spoonfuls of chocolate ice-cream

GRR. Starting Again?

So, after the binge I posted a few days ago, I ate okay for a day and then I went off plan again. This is what happened: I weighed myself a few days later, saw that I was up in 224.xx and grew dejected and then spent the next couple of days not tracking/not healthfully because of whatever crappy justification I came up with in the moment.

Very unlike what I would recommend to another person, I tend to weigh myself in between Monday weigh-ins. This is a really bad idea because inevitably my weight would fluctuate over the week. It's a lose-lose situation because if I weigh in at a lower weight than what I weigh on the next Monday, I feel like a failure on Monday because I feel like it wasn't a "good enough weigh in". If I weigh in at a higher weight than the previous Monday, I feel like a failure for gaining weight and then go and eat without tracking.

I also had my Fitbit off for a couple of days - one day because I plugged it in to charge then forgot that I wasn't wearing it. Another day because I was doing a bunch of washing and didn't want it to get wet. Both days I logged less than 1,000 steps and then felt really pathetic about it because even though I had taken more steps, I had nothing to show for it. How silly is that!!!

In any case, I have been thinking about this weight-loss cycle and I will write about it in one of my upcoming posts. For now however, I will just say how grateful I am that Monday is also the start of a new month and I feel excited about another "new start".

Weigh-in this morning was 223.8 lbs. Up 0.6 since last week. I ended the month 1.8lbs lighter than when I started it. Not much, but even if I keep up this snail's pace, I will end the year under 200lbs which I have not been in about 7-8 years. Yay positive thinking!!!

This is my planned exercise for this week:

SUN - Dumbbell Exercises (DONE!!)
MON - Walk w. Lisa
TUE - Yoga Strength DVD
WED - Walk on my own
THU - Dumbbell Exercises
FRI - Yoga Strength DVD
SAT - Walk w. Libby / Contra Dance

HAPPY FEBRUARY EVERYONE!!!