Week 13: Weigh-in

So much for the idea that I was going to restart yet again. Just checking in with my weight log this week.

Scale said: 234.6 lbs

Also, I have started to read a new book - Health At Every Size: The Surprising Truth About Your Weight. I have only just started, but find it very interesting thus far. I'll post more after reading more.

Week 12: Weigh-in

Not good - I'm up 1.8lbs since the last weigh-in and I skipped a week. I've been having TOM, guests, low motivation etc. I think I'm going to "restart" each time I post a weigh-in update. This time around I've got to start recording food intake as well. I'll try doing this in my paper journal, because I hate updating it all the time online. See how that goes...

Week 10: Weigh-in

Down 1.4 lbs this week. Nice!

I feel like I have not been able to find the motivation to post as often as I would like or as often as I want to. I think that I will stick to posting updates for now, and then when I feel more motivated, and have more to say, then I will also post more.

Still grieving from MIL's death.

Week 9: Weigh-in

The scale is 2lbs up this week. How awful. But, I have been binging and eating high sodium foods as well.

D's mom passed away this morning. Sad news. I went on a binge this afternoon. Will try to do better next month!

Week 8: Weigh-in

Hopped on the scale this morning to 233.4. That's a 3lb weight loss since I began and a 0.2lb weight-loss since last week. Still inching along instead of going at a brisker pace. Of course, it did not help that I went on a bunch of binges this past week and did not eat as many veggies as I should have. I did however, go hiking yesterday (1700 cal) and two walks last week. So, at least, I am not gaining.

I have been thinking of going to an Overeaters Anonymous group. I have not done so yet, but I think I would like to check one out and see what it is like. I don't like the idea of naming this as an addiction or "admitting I have no power over it". I want to feel like I do have power over my eating habits and compulsions. So, we'll see. I might drop in and see if OA is for me.

On another note, maybe it will help for me to start writing down my food intake again.

Binging Again

For the last two days, I have been doing a lot of emotional eating. I have gone on 3 binges of snacks where I will eat the entire contents of a bag of chips or box of crackers. I feel a compulsion to do so, though I am recognizing that this is not the best decision for me. I am going to refocus my efforts to make better food choices for myself.

Starting now...

Week 7: Weigh-in

I hopped on the scale for a 1lb weight-loss since last week. Not bad. My BMI is now in the 38's. I have lost 2.8lbs in the last month and a half. I am grateful for the progress, but I wish this would go faster!!

Plan for today is to walk for an hour with a friend and then go to dinner with another friend.

I hiked a local butte with my friend L yesterday, we burned 1500 calories doing so. I feel proud of myself - it certainly is a challenge for me to do the hike, especially in parts where there is some climbing to do. But the view from up there is quite breathtaking. Our plan is to hike the butte 1x/week.

I'm Back

We were gone for 8 days to Boston. 2 days travel (back and forth), 2 days conference, and 4 days of sight-seeing. It was great fun, and definitely felt like a break. The flights were torturous and long (west-east coast and back), and the time differences +DST made us very sleepy.

Fun-wise, we did lots of sight-seeing, learned a lot about Boston history, met a friend I had not met in 14 years, and met a dear family of friends I had not seen since 2009. Very satisfying altogether!

Food-wise, we ate out a lot. We were on a budget, so we ate out a lot at chipotle-style restaurants. D got horribly sick on his birthday from some dodgy chicken at a Qdoba. The hotel we stayed at for 4 days had a hot breakfast, so that was good too.

Exercise-wise, we walked around a lot. I would hate to have to drive around in Boston.I did not make use of the hotel fitness centers.

All in all, I ended up losing 0.2lbs on the trip - not bad at all! I was expecting a 2lbs+ gain. Thankfully, that did not happen.

Gone for a week

I will be gone for a little more than a week. I'll be back on 3/12. Will post updates then. Take care... whoever is reading...

Sore Today

Zumba last night was fun. I was very awkward, didn't move the way I was supposed to, and felt ridiculous! But, the class went by so much quicker than any other workout classes I had been to, so that's wonderful. I think I will be back again. I didn't feel like the workout was a big strain on me, but I was tired, slept well and this morning was sore - so I think I was using muscles that I don't usually use. Good job, me!!!

I started work about an hour and a half later than most days - it makes such a difference to have an extra hour and a half to not have to focus on work! I wish I worked shorter hours. I wish everyone worked shorter hours! We all would be much happier that way, I think.

Goal for this week, use up as much of the stuff in the fridge as we can before we leave for a week long trip to Boston. This means getting creative with foodstuff and trying new recipes. Nice! I am going to make roasted ricotta tomatoes today - basically, scoop out tomatoes, stuff them with a mixture of ricotta, parsley, garlic, salt and pepper, top with some breadcrumbs, bake at 400F for half an hour. I'll add a pic tomorrow.

Kale and Zumba

I had a good day yesterday. I made three things I have never made before -

• Kale Chips
• Kale/Potato Gratin
• Ricotta-Garlic baked spread w. sourdough

Kale chips are wonderful. I just tossed them with tahini, lemon juice, chilli powder, salt, olive oil and nutritional yeast and baked on low heat until they were crispy. They were FANTASTIC and so easy to make. It's unbelievable that they cost so much at the supermarkets - usually $4.99 for a 5 oz box. I'm never buying them again - I will continue to make them. This is definitely a recipe to keep!

I am going to my very first Zumba class today. I have seen zumba and once did a 5 minute zumba thing - it looks difficult and silly. Anyhow, today is my first class. I am going with my friend L. I know some of my co-workers go to this particular class at my gym. I am not looking forward to that. But, maybe when I get there, I won't care.

Goals for today:

• Eat 3/3
• Drink 8 glasses of water
• Take multivitamin
• Go to zumba class
• Make stir-fry for dinner

Weekly Weigh-in #3

Weigh-ed in today. The scale said 234.4lbs. That means I have had my first weekly weight-gain. It's only 0.2 lbs, so I am thankful.

I went on a rather strenuous hike yesterday. Strenuous for me, that is. It was a moderate hike of 1.1 miles. The last third of the hike was rocky and I did a lot of climbing. At one point, I felt nauseous. My friend L with whom I was hiking was wonderful - we stopped for breaks a lot - which made her late for a lunch date. However, we both encourage each other a lot - which is truly wonderful. It's nice to have a hiking buddy. It felt like an accomplishment. Endomondo said that we used about 1200 calories. I estimate that it was actually a bit higher than that - for my weight. Imagine what it will be like to take the same hike with about 50lbs less weight on me!!! I'll get there eventually...

I spent the rest of Sunday lazing. I watched Julie and Julia. Nice movie - lots of food and very drool-worthy. I wish I could cook and eat like that!!! How did they manage left-overs? To cook 524 recipes a year, they must have chucked out all their leftovers or they would never be able to finish on time. Anyway, it was a good movie. I liked it.

Goal for today - 3 meals, 3 snacks. Cooking something with kale this evening. Don't know what yet.

Self-Love

My goal for today is to engage in lots of self-love. I am going to try and curb negative self-talk about myself and my body. I love myself!!

Breakfast. 8.30am
Tea, Scone, Home-baked doughnut

Snack. 11:00am
Apple

Lunch. 12.30pm
Indian fried rice my sister made for me, yogurt

Snack. 4:30pm
Scone

Dinner. 7:45pm
Not sure

Exercise
1 hr walk w. friend, 1.5 hr square dance class

3/3 again

My eating has been completely off whack these past few days. I have not been feeling motivated for weight-loss and moderate eating, and have had a couple of binges in the past couple of days. I think everytime I feel somewhat depressed, I do emotional eating. This is not good. I am going to go back and do the goal I had set for myself - limiting myself to eating three meals and three snacks each day. Here's the plan for today -

Breakfast. 8.30am
Black tea, apple

Snack. 11:00am
Piece of cheese

Lunch. 12.30pm
West African Yam and Peanut Stew, slice of pizza

Snack. 4:30pm
Sugar overload: 2 brownies, 1 cookie, 1/2 bagel w. cream cheese

Dinner. 7:45pm

Quinoa salad w. tomatoes, olives, chickpeas, feta, cilantro, lemon juice
Home-made hard apple cider (D loves brewing things)

Facebook depresses me

After a very long time not enrolling on facebook, I finally gave in and created an account a couple of weeks ago. While this has been really wonderful in terms of keeping up with people I know and love, it is also starting to depress me enormously.

People post so many pictures on there - and everyone looks so thin!! I know that many people have a distorted view of how much heavier than others they are, but in my case it is not a distortion, but a reality. Everyone posts pictures of themselves as thin beings while I shy away from the camera and hate taking pictures of myself! What a sad state of affairs this is.

I called my sister and  told her this. She said that I should use the feeling I get seeing these pictures as motivation to workout and lose weight. How do I do that? I don't seem to know how! I don't want to workout. I want to go on a binge!

Weekly Weigh-in #2

The scale read 234.2lbs this morning. A very small weight-loss over the past 2 weeks. But I'll take that over a weight-gain.

I have been flagging in motivation and don't want to post on here. I wish this was not the case. It also does not help that I have been very busy, sleep deprived, and have been doing occasional binges these past few days. I really want to stop blogging, but I hope that posting something is better than quitting altogether.

I'm back and flagging motivation

I am back from my vacation. It went well, I had a good time. However, eating was completely off whack when I was on my trip - I ate a lot, and snacked a lot more. Did not do much exercise either. Not a good combination altogether. I am waiting for my weigh-in on Monday to see how I recuperate from the week-long trip.

Happy Valentine's day, everyone! I am going to achieve two of my goals for the month today. I plan on cooking two new things today, and also am going to have a romantic Valentine's meal with D as planned. I'll post updates tomorrow.

On another note, I feel my motivation flagging. I have to push through and try and be healthy. However, I don't know that my motivation is keeping up with my goals. 

Gone for a while

If anyone is reading... I will be gone for a week. I am travelling to the mid-west. I'll try to stay on track with eating. I'll be back next Wednesday and check in then about how things have been. Stay warm, everyone!

Recipes for the Month

One of my goals for February is to make 3 new recipes that I have not made before. I keep cooking the same things over and over, and it is time to expand my repertoire. Here are the three things I plan on making when I get back from vacation next week:

1. African Groundnut Stew
2. Tofu Piri Piri
3. Pumpkin-Walnut cake 

The first two recipes are from Vegan Fire and Spice, and the last one is from a recipe a co-worker gave me.

Here's the nosh planned for today -

Breakfast. 7:30am
Tea w. milk & splenda
Pilot bread x1
2 oz cheese

Snack #1. 10:30am
Banana

Lunch. 1:00pm
Rice, Thai Tofu Green Curry

Snack #2. 4:00pm
Hummus & Carrots

Exercise. 5:15pm
Walk with friend - 1 hr

Dinner. 8:00pm
Tofu tacos w. salsa
Fat free-vanilla ice-cream

Weekly Weigh-in #1

I stepped on the scale this morning - 234.8lbs. That is a 1.6lb weight loss this week. I should be happy, but I have been stepping on the scale each morning, and I know at one point it was down to 232.4, so I feel slightly bad.

To avoid this, I won't step on the scale between weigh-ins. I will be gone next Monday on vacation and may not have access to a scale. However, I will be back and weighing-in the Monday after that.

Breakast. 8:15am
Plain Greek yogurt  mixed with a banana, nuts and craisins

Lunch. 12:15pm
1 slice rustic onion-herb bread
Pav bhaji
Roasted Broccoli
2 Lindor truffles

Mid-afternoon Snack. 2:00pm
1/2 cup trail mix

Mid-afternoon Snack #2. 5:45pm
Hummus & carrots

Dinner. 8:50pm
Rice, Thai Tofu Green Curry
Pilot bread
Fat-free vanilla ice-cream
(We found out that D's mother had fallen and broken an arm and a hip. She is very old and frail. We went to visit her, and dinner was delayed)